"More"

Today while signing "more" Maddox mouthed "more" with no sound when I put him on the swings.  The swings he once feared are now helping him to communicate!!  

Ive been teaching Maddox sign language for a year and a half and its finally clicking with him.  He's finally making a connection.  Throughout the day he continues to sign "more" for so many things.  The smile on his face when he uses sign language melts my heart.  He's loving the fact that he can now communicate with sign language.  

Sign Language FINALLY

When we were at the park this morning I started to take Maddox off the swings and he grabbed my hands and did hand over hand and signed "more."  I was in total shock!! 

Ive been teaching Maddox sign language for a year and a half and today it finally clicked for him.  After the swings he ended up signing "more" about 20times throughout the day!!

If youre mother or father teaching your kids sign language so they can communicate DO NOT GIVE UP!  After a year and half of hand over hand he is finally starting to use sign language!!  

Maddox has only been enjoying the swings this month.  The last time he loved to swing was Septmeber 2019.  Now look at the smile on this boys face this morning!! 

Autism

Our oldest son Maddox has Autism.  This was so hard for me to say for so long.  In the past month I finally said it on social media.  Our little 3 year old.  

I want to do everything I can to help him gain life skills.  He's such a happy boy with a huge smile.  Each new thing he does is so amazing to me.  I want to share these moments with everyone.  I want to share these moments with the world.  

Although he doesn't speak yet, he speaks in his own way.  His hugs and kisses tell me how much he loves me.  His eyes and smile show his happiness.  His body language speaks volumes.  

What comes so simple for other is a struggle for our son Maddox.  He doesn't understand how to use a fork and spoon.  Everyday as I feed Maddox or use hand over hand with utensils I'm reminded how much I take for granted.  

Maddox hits and kicks me in the face almost everyday and I can't help but hug him and tell him how much I love him.  I love Maddox with all of my heart.  My little boy who they thought would be stillborn is alive and kicking.  

Being Maddoxs mommy is a beautiful gift. 

Quality Time or Phone Time

Quality time is relative!  Relative to you and the way in which you view the world along with your place in it.  Now that I have a son I find myself constantly analyzing what quality time means to my family.  I want to ensure I'm giving my family all of me as opposed to tuned out me.

Since quality time can be viewed as relative, for me it means putting my phone down, turning off the television, moving magazines out of eyesight, and giving my full attention to my family.  I don't want to be the type of parent whom is constantly on their phone.  I want my family to know that they mean more to me then what's going on with Instagram, Facebook, or Pinterest.  Well... I don't have Facebook, I'm sure you get my drift.  I love Instagram and have recent developed a love for Pinterest, however they don't mean more to me then my family.  

The simple act of having your phone in eyesight impedes conversation, slows creativity, and reduces the simple relationship connection.  While my son is watching everything I do and say I want to ensure I'm displaying appropriate behaviors for him.  I want him to know that he deserves and will get my full attention.  I want him to know cell phones don't run this world....  at least not my world as I can't speak for all.  

I've told myself on many occasions that I'm just going to check Instagram or my email for a second, however I've noticed some seconds turn into minutes and with a couple blinks 30 minutes may have went by while my son is roaming or watching television.  I'm not a perfect human so when I do make these mistakes I ensure to check myself and put that crap away because family time is much more important to me.  

A cell phone out of eye sight can and will increase your healthy communication skills.  Put that crap away!

I Love You!

Knock Knock

Do you knock when you go to your friends or family members homes?  This simple question can turn into a big debate depending on who you talk to.

Knock Knock!  I prefer to knock!  I personally enjoy having a heads up if someone is at the front door with a knock.  Why?  What if I don't want to see you?  This gives me a chance to hide and ignore you because maybe you didn't call before showing up and I'm walking around the house in my beautiful birthday suit imagining what I'm going to do next.. hopefully make love to my man!  But DANGIT NOW YOU'RE WALKING IN!  We're trying to make a baby here, please don't mess that up!  

Need another reason- if you're anything like me I like to get in a workout whenever there is time.  Half the time that means mostly naked or halfway naked, and BAM YOU WALK IN!  My new thoughts, boy would I enjoy throwing my front door at you... I would never do this, but that thought helps me to not scream and yell at you for barging in on my five seconds of free time to work on my health.  

Even if you did call it's a great idea to announce your energy at the door before you just walk in.  Every energy is different and I personally enjoy mentally preparing my energy for yours because I don't want my energy drained completely by your visit.  Let me put it this way- YOU NEVER KNOW HOW SOMEONE FEELS ABOUT YOU so be nice and announce yourself whether you're family or even THE best friend.   You never know what someone is going through at the time and BAM you walk in!  Be nice and knock and wait for someone to come to the door.  Maybe I'm busy hiding things I don't want you to see and BAM- YOU BARGE IN!  WTFudgersicle!  

Or are you THAT PERSON- "I don't have to knock when I go to my family members or friends homes."  I'd like to personally throw a pie at your face and knock you off your high horse with your narcissistic self.  If you're that person, do me a favor please,  go look in the mirror and tell yourself- SELF< STOP BEING SELFISH!  OTHER PEOPLES LIVES DON'T REVOLVE AROUND ME AND MY SELFISH NEEDS AND SELFISH THOUGHTS!  I WILL KNOCK ON ALL DOORS!  

GOOD JOB!

With the holidays please remember to be kind and KNOCK KNOCK!

I LOVE YOU MORE WHEN YOU KNOCK! 

racism

Don't be racist.  Embrace all.  Love all.  Spread Love.  

I'm in a interracial loving relationship and continue to get dirty looks.  Sucks.  

BE LOVE.

Are You NICE?

Nice Humans... Do you know some?

Over the past few months I’ve had a few encounters with some humans who weren’t very nice?  Why?  Who knows? 

First impressions imprint into the human brain instantly.  Within the first 10 seconds of meeting someone humans judge and come to realizations, from which the human is then categorized into the human brain. Which category do you fall into when you meet people?

I know I’m not the best which means I’m definitely striving to be a nice human to those I come into contact with, but some of you humans are really testing me lately.  What would Jesus do?  What would the Dalai Lama do?  What would your Grandma do?  What would Zulekha do?  Apparently at times I will yell, flip someone off, curse, and maybe just curse someone out in my head.  I’M TRYING NOT TO DO THESE THINGS…  walk away is the best answer when it comes to the rude humans.  

In Febraury I met someone who looked me up and down like I was a piece of… oh I wont say.  This really hurt my feelings and got me thinking, wow I don’t even know this human nor does this human know me but they give me nothing but negativity.  We can’t change everyones minds about us when they choose to judge.  We can make our best attempts to not let these encounters sway us and instead we can stand tall, smile, and move forward with our lives. Afterall there are so many NICE, COMPASSIONATE SOULS, HAPPY HUMANS, GIVING NOTHING BUT UNCONDITIONAL POSITIVE REGARD.  

As humans all inhabiting this Earth let’s try and make great attempts to be nice to one another.  When we meet for the first time let’s not look at skin color, clothing, hair, stature and anything else that causes instant judgment.  Let’s smile and introduce ourselves and hope the BEST! 

I LOVE YOU.